All the pretty things you tried to destroy were all stronger than you. All the. Fragmented chunks of drama. Binge drinking. Alert. Sirens. Jumped the fence--found myself alone. When he died, no one looked back. No one bothered. He was insignificant. More so in death. He becomes. He filed through unyielding. Leave no man standing. Leave no man. Breathe. Two breaths and dive. Plummet. Let go. Release. Catch. Nothing open. Infinity. Abstract pain. So abstract it's not pain. Pain. Yeah I'm still angry. Why are you surprised? You're the one that made me this way. You were there. You know all truths. All methods. All the things you shouldn't have said to wreak me on humanity. But here I am. Savage brown man not happy til' he shares what he has to offer with the world. Visions of Shylock. Bleeds til' the emotion runs sour and all that's left is a memory. Kinesthetic nightmares. Uncontrolled violence of the mind. I'm sorry. About the way I maneuvered to get us to this point, but I'm not sorry that we are here. That you'll die staring me in the face. A million times. Romance is gone. Romance is crippled. Sultry violence. Sultry silence. Succulent meandering. Senses failed. Shut down. Defunct. The march carries on. We've got nowhere to run. The hills. Fleeting. Flat. Perceived. Artemis articulated. I miss you love. love. . . . .

Impassioned passion. Believing the lies. Believing all eyes. Confident in the con. I'm trying to be the better person, but I can't stop clawing at all of your filth.

Repulsion. Hogs are slaughtered.

What's it going to take?

Meditating junkie on the edge of sanity. So close. Evasive is the beast. Best wishes to the animal. And we fail. And all things dissolve. I'm sorry. About the way I make you think. About the ways I conquer you. About about about . . .

Calm disturbed. Creeping the creep. She walks heavily on all of the dreams I planted. Glad you're doing well. Pleased to meet you. Ignore the hurt. Subside. All things you love. Clarity. Concupiscence
. Words I stole from the poet. I'm still paranoid, and I can't stop scratching. Dreams . I can't stop dreaming. I can't kill the ideals. Suffocate them. Platinum platinums. I dream. Free--tattered, but not like the soldier. Walk away. Run. Fallen doubts and the end of disconnection. Let it all fall together. All all.

Renewed hope, revoked tremors. I'm shaking yet hardly breaking. I put my faith in you--and now I'd like to take that faith back. I'd like to forget all the bad thoughts I've had about you and not think anymore. I am channeling my power animal--while wondering what a power animal is. Mine is deformed--limping languidly into the night. I climbed the mountain to end the war, but now I'm all alone. The wolves have stopped howling. I am reawakened. No longer afraid of the night. No longer afraid of your treachery. I'm sorry that I'm breaking you. That my mind works so nefariously to avenge the inane. Walk. Walk and think. Thoughts compiling. I need a plan. Always a plan. Warring nationalism. I'm a patriot. Look at the love in my heart. Look at the love drip from the wall. Look at the love in my eyes. . .